Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Hold on?

What is it that makes some people able to say "That's it, it's time for me to go."? I mean I know where I'm going, but I'm not okay with going there now! It makes me wonder if you see the world a little different when you reach the end of your life. Is there a sudden clarity? Do you suddenly see that your loved ones would be better off if they could just move on?

Does it bring more comfort to the family if the person is ready to go? Is that somehow easier to deal with?

I know that the sting of death is gone, but is it? Why do I still stress about what would happen if I died? Why do I wonder if I would be able to to tell my family that I am ready to go? Some would say it's because I don't have real peace with God, but they'd be wrong. I think it's because I feel I have so much to live for. A beautiful family and church body. I don't want to miss my kid's first's. I want to be there for Libby's first broken heart, for her graduation, to walk her down the isle to her prince! I want to be at Ivan's games, watch him grow into a man and to start a family of his own! Guess I'm just not ready to die, that's probably okay.

Lord, direct, guide, and bless our lives. May we seek You and honor You with our lives.

3 comments:

mike of argonia said...

read Heaven by Randy Alcorn...it will give you a great perspective on what's to come and make you eager for HOME!

mike of argonia said...

Ted Dekker's The Slumber of Christianity is another great encourager when dealing with our eternal home

Krista said...

I never could understand why people would say "come quickly Lord Jesus". I thought, don't they want to live their lives out?
Then I had one summer where I was completely miserable. I was far from home with an antagonistic Mormon convert roommate.
I was so lost and lonely that I finally got to the point where I could say, I would rather be in heaven than here.
Then I understood.
Now I know I don't want to go too soon because I have a family, but I see the hurt and pain in this world all too often and I can understand why people would say that.