In that moment...

So Wednesdays are my killer days. I begin the day about 7am getting around and heading to the office to be there no later than 8 (that's my aim). Most days I don't come home for lunch and go straight through our student ministry before coming home around 9pm and tucking the kids in. A full day, and there are times that I find myself hoping that everyone's parents show up on time so I can just get home, but then there are those moments where they don't and I'm amazingly blessed by conversations that draw me and a student into the presence of God.

It's not that i am a great person or student minister, because most nights I am ready to check out and just head home. But... in that moment when the lights are on and the student says "so what does it mean when the Bible says..." I remember why it is that I do this!! Not because I can run a great program, or give a good lesson. I do this because there were people in my teen years who invested in me and thought I was worth some extra time. So in that moment I choose to be in that moment, if that makes any sense. I choose to not just stand there and nod, but to be present, involved, engaged. As I write this I think "that's not rocket science and not tough" but there are times that it is.

In that moment the truth of my commitment comes out. Will I invest in the kingdom of God, or will I invest in the kingdom of me? It's not that I don't want to be home with my family, it's that i have students who don't have a family other than our student ministry. We need to be there to do life with them, to let them know they are worth our time even when we are spent and tired.

In those moments, I am refreshed spiritually. There is something about the seeking soul that encourages me, and makes me think that maybe the did hear something after all.

Lord may I always choose to be in that moment...